Thank you

Too much noise. I need to be still. I wish to be silent.
If I wake up without a smile on my face, there are no complex explanations. This is not good.
So again, back to basics.
Basic love, basic breathing, basic forgiving.

I had no right to be in your private picture I saw on that rainy day. I realized that I can’t be a part of that. I am way too experienced, way too aware of ego, way too tired of confusing myself or others anymore. Time to be unconfused. Time to heal. This is an awakening in the middle of the rain. It tasted salty. It burned an open scar. But then, as I bravely bore the pain, a sweet burst of sun. I knew this was a necessary lesson.

And as I was walking today, I came across this. It is simple and necessary.

I didn’t see anything I already didn’t know. I just hadn’t acknowledged it. We were wrapping ourselves in a net of lazy habits, of old repetitions to sooth the ego. And before I allow my mind to spin, I lay myself naked on fertile ground with love, and contemplate the growth of a seed that thrives on a better relationship with you.

It won’t be easy. But I’ve taken a good step forward. So you can love her.
So I can love him. So we can grow and learn, and not hurt anybody anymore.